I always thought that people who have the inability to change anything in their routine, person or life, are too comfortable, not adventurous enough, or simply lazy. I still beleive that to some degree, but the past few months have made me see “changes” in a whole new light.
It actually showed me that this kind of change is the easiest. The
more comfortable you have been in life, the more you are likely to hate
changes. When I left my ex to be in the street with 2 young boys, that
change was harsh, but it was quite easy. Easy simply because I was
absolutely miserable and nothing mattered anymore. Nothing but my boys
and I being free of daily emotional torment. Yes, it was easy to give up
everything, eat on the floor the same food every single day, and
survive with 800$ a month. When I hear people give zillions of excuses
on why they can’t change their situation, I simply think to myself that
they are simply not miserable enough to act, yet. If you feel unhappy
but won’t change, quit complaining!
I was at a point in my life where other than the desire to always
better myself, and keep a open mind on what comes my way, I didn’t find
the true need for any major “change” ( to the exception of wanting to
reduce the size of my oversized behind, of course)
Then, change came. A very unwelcome, not at all expected, nor desired change.
Not a change that require temporary discomfort of change of routine or
the start of something unknown and new, no, the changes that completely
make you have to re-invent yourself.
From very energetic to no more energy, from very active to having to
sit because your body disables you to do the things you not only knew,
but we’re so much part of you that you never thought twice about them.
Changes of the very traits that defined you and made people say “oh yes,
this girl, she is “like this”"
Changes of personality, changes of how you perceive certain
situations and people, changes in your ability to remember things and
information. Not being able to focus anymore, not being able to be…
What do you do with this type of changes??